Amanda's Realization

A narrative story made by me base on the picture. Here it goes:

The beggar with torn pants and has only one old shoe with disabled hands

Full of disabled man begging on the street, Homeless people searching for shelter, a ragged child seeking for parents to protect and guide him, a lonely kid looking for friends. I was so close of becoming one of them but luckily someone came to rescue me. I am blessed with a beautiful name Amanda, complete senses. I have treasures that cannot be replaced by material things who are my friends, parents and siblings. We're neither rich nor poor but we can afford our daily needs. I got all the attention of my teachers and friends except for my parents.

One day, on my graduation day, I woke up so early and prepare my gown. I am so eager to see my batch mates wearing togas, spending each moment full of boisterous laughter and taking pictures together. As I ran out to my room I saw my mom rushing for something. My mom then apologizes for she can't attend my graduation because my baby brother is attending field trip. So I waited for my dad to come down but a note on the refrigerator caught my attention. I read it and saw a message from my dad saying sorry. He can't attend my graduation too because he'll be going to Cebu for an important meeting. I felt so terribly bad and heartbreaking. Tears went down to my cheeks. Instead of being so happy during my graduation I've been pondering things on why they're treating me like adopted. I feel like I am abandoned because there a lot of evidences and reasons for me to think that I'm not their daughter.

After the graduation I planned to leave home and stay away from home. I thought staying away from home is a better idea. The night after the party I packed my things with tears flowing down to my cheeks and feeling confident in the outside but deep inside I'm scared with my fast heartbeat. As I went out the main door I glance again to my house and all I can recall are the memories when I feel miserable. I am confident at first but as I go on I saw people with no shelter. I saw kids playing so happily but so ragged, no slippers, torn clothes and looking so haggard. I feel so sad for them. I don't know why I felt the same way they feel. Little by little I felt so nervous. A beggar with torn pants and has only one old shoe with disabled hands came and approach me and asked me if I run out and leave home and I say yes. When I say yes, he cried and holds my hand and talked to me. He then told me that he also run out and leaves home. He told me that it would be so difficult for me to adjust especially when you get used to of having what you wanted to have like material thing or could be love from your family. He told and scare me that I'll be like him, so poor and hopeless, if I won't go back and still stick to my decision to stay away from home. I stared at him while he was talking. I looked at him closely in the eye and saw nothing but sorrow in his eyes. I gave him a piece of bread and water then he gave me back a smile. As I walk, I passed by in a church and went inside to seek for help to God because I'm confused, he's my only hope. As I went inside the church I imagined myself wearing the same clothes of the beggar asking for answers to my questions. While I'm praying, I come up with a thought that the beggar is God. Because the man is making me feel that I got the wrong decision. From that moment, I realized that the beggar is God's sign for me to go back that it's not too late for me to correct my wrong decision. Its midnight and the street are so discreet. After I went to church I ran quickly as I could back home. Shockingly I saw my dad parking our car in our garage. I was so nervous of the reaction of my father. But I put in my mind that I need not to keep my emotions longer. I need to be honest with them. I need to understand them. Confidently, I went inside the gate and hug my dad tightly. Full of sad tears went down to my cheeks. He then talked to me and I told him exactly what I feel. My father told my mother and so they did understand me.They apologized to me for not attending to my graduation day. And they say it's natural to be jealous.

I am glad to be home. I realized that I was wrong. Compare to those kids in the street you must be happy with your life because you have your parents and peaceful life and a happy family. You must be happy because you are blessed with wonderful things in life. Because of what I did that night, I was inspired to plan some charitable works and I successfully did. The beggar with torn pants and has only one old shoe with disabled hands was with me, talking to me laughing so happily because of the help I offered. He cried so hard and thanked me. He hugged me and I said " I thank you too for inspiring me to come back and correct my wrong doings". The old man smile back and I whispered to myself " You helped me learn and see through things which I cannot see and I know it's you, God". Thank you God for sending someone to rescue me.

Pending questions

I am a person who never forgets our memories together. I am a person who gives importance to such people who also gives importance to me.

I titled my post"Pending questions" its because there's this person I knew that every time I am with this person, I can't help my self BUT to laugh and smile like a clown even if I am in a bad mood and connected to the title of my post. I have been asking for a sign and seeking help to god to give me answers why Am I feeling weird when I am with this particular person. STILL WAITING FOR THOSE SIGNS! T.T

It started when I was a little kid. Every time me and my whole family went home in the Philippines and saw "y"(code name- so it'll be easy for you to understand.) and mentioning my name, I can't help but to struggle and go near to him/her. Even In the airport leaving Philippines, I thought she was following me its because I can smell her cologne! nyayks! those things that I feel whenever him/her is there is totally WEIRD!

if you're in my position, you'll totally for sure let your palm be read!

WAAAAAAAAH!

Until I graduated and become high school, I still feel the same feeling when I am with him/her.

Now that I am staying here in Phils. for good, all the time I have been suffering when "y" is not around. I feel like I'm all alone and feels like I am gong to have a boring day with out "y". But every time "y" is around, I feel lively and like my body is full of energy. In in short , Whenever "y" is around or every time I'm with "y" I feel so comfortable talking to him/her or laughing with him/her. All those things we've done together is unforgettable. Even If how many times I forget it still, pops up in my mind. I can't forget all those fun and dull things we had together. It was like I am so open and sweet or kind to "y".

Sometimes I even text him/her and when he/she doesn't reply I feel really bad and I even tweet it! that I hate to be ignored. Oh well, When it comes to "y" I am sometimes over reacting. "Y" is also one of the reasons why I am studying so hard and eating a lot! I really don't have any idea why the heck am I feeling this.

One night, I am so feeling awful. and so I decided to text "y" and tell him/her everything. That I am having this weird feeling whenever he/she is around. and I also tell "y" everything about being sad or alone thingy and that's AWKWARD! telling the truth to "y" is totally awkward. I mean after those things "y" also told me, he/she did feel the same way for me.

and after that we end up LAUGHING! and "y" did also give some advices to me though. "Y" told me that there is a reason why I am in this position that there is also a reason why I'm feeling weird towards him/her!

Those advices really helped me. And now still those feelings is still attacking me!

I even over reacted last night! and I feel awful about it and got ignored again. I think It's my fault coz I feel like I am doing it, it's because I am trying to get "y's" attention.

I don't know actually how to end this post but I just want to say that maybe someday I'll find answers to my questions that why am I feeling weird(in my vocabulary)whenever that particular person is around?? Why do I get jealous when some one caught his/her attention?? Why do I feel comfortable when he/she is around?? -- er! slow down..there are actually a lot of pending questions popping in my mind right now and I hope I'll get the answers sooner!

I hope so! thanks for reading guys! Till next time readers! ^_________^

PS: I use him/her so that I can keep his/her identity! sorry I can't tell who's "y"

Thanks for understanding! and sorry for the wrong grammar...

FABULOUS Newborn kittens

May 20, 2010 -the labor day of my dearest kittens.

Since I was a kid I always thought cats as purely bad luck animals which is not all. Every time I see black cats or any cats i immediately close my eyes and count 1 2 3 and open my eyes and look! the cat vanished! hahaha oh well, That was before but now as I grow I don't do those close eyes thingy of course~ nyahahaha. Anyways, let me show you our cat:

Name: Patricia *patring*"ming ming"

My mom gave her the name Patricia. It actually fits her. She's a girl as you can see in her name. Since Patricia stayed in our house almost all of our neighbor's cats got jealous of Patricia because As you can see Patricia has everything- food, comfortable place to stay, and can roam everywhere in our house, but hey! I'm not saying our neighbor's place is not that comfy but duh? we do take good care of our pets and shower them with fresh water and soap. Unlike the cats roaming around the roads and our neighbor's cats are so dirty and unpleasant. So definitely for sure those cats get jealous of Patricia. One time we saw some cats coming inside our backyard, roaming around. Well, As you can see in the picture Patricia is pretty and gorgeous and almost all of the cats that is always sneaking in our backyard are boys! They were like every night sneaking or could be VISITING our cat..HOWS THAT HUH?! tsk tsk..

One day we just notice something has change in her physical appearance and thats... because she has a big tummy! and so that means she's PREGNANT! We took good care of her.

May 20, in the morning I woke up because of her. because she was shouting for help maybe? or crying..Her tiny little squeaky voice is so damn irritating coz i am so freakin sleepy but oh she's cute though. Even after i ate she is still crying. So i go to my room and record her while crying:

CHECK THIS OUT:

Sorry it's kinda blur coz it's my cellphone I use. Anyways, back to her squeaky voice, so irritating right? waaah but then I was worried about her. She's crying because she wants to go inside our house. So because of that I let her in, in our window. Of course I just woke up so I didn't know anything why my mom and dad gets mad when I let her in. My sister just told me she has a blood in his butt and so i panic and find a way to let her go out. That means she's going to deliver her babies.

After Lunch, I just heard from my yaya' that our cat is now delivering her babies. So of course I hate how cats deliver there babies so I really don't mind checking or sneaking out plus I hate bloods especially the smell it SUCKS! ew!

Maybe around 4:00 PM Patricia is done delivering her babies and gladly she has four KITTENS! HOORAAY!

It took weeks for us to take a pic and go near to those kittens. I just can't stop but to go near to them so I find a right time to sneak and So here we are, I am going to show you some of my kittens pictorial session while Patricia is not around:

We actually didn't decide any names for our kittens yet.

As you can see in this photo, the brownish cat's left eye is not fully developed.

WOOT! so cute!

CUTE!^___^

There are more..and more photos taken..

SLEEPY HEADS!

OHH..HOW SWEET

USING ONE ANOTHER AS PILLOWS!

LOOK! PATRING LOOK ALIKE!

Starring the..

"Black cat"

SOLOS:

"Patricia LOOK ALIKE"

garfield look alike

cuuttee

dalmatian look alike

There a lot of photos but then it will make my post long so I just cut it off. I just choose those presentable pics though so no worries at all. Hahahahaha. We actually didn't decide there names yet cause I DON'T KNOW AT ALL! hahahaha.

I Think i'll end my post here cause my purpose in this post is to show some photos. So there, you see how adorable and cute kittens they are.

So maybe This is it! Till next time readers! Just wait for more photos and pictorials of my adorable kittens. Thanks for reading and leave some comments if you have something to say.

XOXO^____^

Mixed emotions

I feel weird awhile ago but now i feel funny about myself and my cousin(you might wanna check the time? : 10: 00 pm). For sure you guys wanna know why I feel weird then suddenly feel funny about myself and my cousin. Oh well I feel weird awhile ago coz maybe I'm bored and don't know what to do at all, because every time i have this dysmenorrhea all I do is to fall asleep or lay in my bed and watch t.v if ever I'm bored. Since there are no nice movies featuring at all I don't know what to do but stare at the wall, check my phone if ever anyone texted me. Until I went to the church and went home to eat, everything i felt being a weirdo vanished and changed into feeling lively. Lively because all i do the whole afternoon was to sleep so of course at night you are totally so awake and full of energy. Since I can't sleep I opened my facebook and some one chatted me in a rush. It's now my cousin. This part I am now telling you why I feel funny about my cousin and myself. My cousin"chez" do ask me if do i still have the old account or link that she gave me before. That link was actually important to us. I look for it in my messages but I just can't see it. I asked her if she checked it in her SECOND account, she told me "none". So of course i looked it again in my inbox. Me and my cousin is now in a trouble and getting panic looking for that link. So of course i helped her and opened her second account and check again in it's inbox and now there it is! I SAW IT! hahaha so I opened again my account and chat with her confirming if i got the correct link and so it is! I told her that everything's under control and so i asked her..ARE YOU HAPPY NA? hahaha and she was! Seeing her panic is funny and oh cute! so that's how my post ends! I helped her look for that link! HORAY FOR ME!

just sharing readers! till next time thanks for reading! ^^

Unknown mystery behind "7"*curiousity*

I know you guys don't actually have idea why i titled my post -Unknown mystery behind "7" - oh well its because there's a lot of happenings connected to the number seven(7). Try to think how come there are seven days and not ten days or more? right? i mean what does seven actually means? also this seven wonders of the world..why is it seven? actually there are more things that is also connected to the number "7". I have this situation that made me curious about the meaning of the number seven, It's all about my little sister:

The time when my sister is 7 months old and her fingers was hit by the door when my father closed the door. My sister's fingers were flattened but the doctor says its alright coz she's still a baby. Years after, My sister is 7 years old(still SEVEN) Christmas day, we went outside to eat and celebrate when we went to call for a cab accidentally again the fingers of my sister were hit by the door of the car and still my father is the one who closed it. Thank god, my sister's ring save her fingers from being flattened. *WOOT! HOORAY FOR THE RING! *

Anyways,

According to my research mostly of the Chinese people believes that 7 is the favorite number of god. That because of some reasons, but one of the reasons was that he is the eldest of 7 children in his family.

As I can see mostly of my research about spiritual meanings of seven was that its all about * mystery, study, and knowledge. All about dreams and imaginations. While in the biblical meanings of seven was all about words which occur in the bible seven times(as you can see in the word biblical)

Well I really don't have any idea about the number 7 being given importance to the whole world even god. I just want to share what happened to my sister coz its kinda shocking about her being hit by a door in the same number of age which is SEVEN..

I guess I really have to hunt things about #seven. I write this post coz im curious about it and so that maybe some of you, readers, could give me some tips or could tell me reasons and can help clear my mind.

SO I think i'll stop here coz I really don't know what to say. I just type and type anything I want to type and publish it. That's why I am apologizing for the wrong grammar. So this is it I hope you could help me on this(about being curious of the no. 7).

Thanks for reading this lazy post. leave some comments or complains! HAHAHA^_____^

Memorable 2010 Summer Vacation

This year is totally UNEXPECTED! for its my first time to spend my summer together with my relatives.

...so this is us! well we're not complete..anyways if you can't find me at the pic let me give you some hint: i wore pink shirt and denim shorts! see me?! hahaha...LETS PROCEED!

The picture that you see right now is actually located in BOHOL, PHILIPPINES specifically in Sagbayan peak, one of the tourist spots. As an introduction let me start telling you how come my title is Memorable 2010 Summer Vacation??! well first of all , for this year 2010 all we do was to have fun, and relax and feeling the summer! but before we had those fun days we are so tired for the school year ends. Suddenly our parents and our cousin's parents decided to spend summer vacation in Bohol. So that's when I can totally feel now the summer. Let me guide you to our VACATION trip in Bohol.


BOHOL, PHILIPPINES


First trip:

Location: BLOOD COMPACT

I'm actually together with my sisters and brother and my mom.

Second trip:

Location: Baclayon church

My cousins taking a pic with the whole part of Baclayon church

Third trip:

Location: Place of PRONY THE PYTHON

In the picture: My relatives and my brother including prony

Fourth Trip:

MONKEY together with my brother's celphone hahaha

TARSIER(BABY)

Location: Loboc

Some animals found in Loboc

Fifth Trip:

Location: Loboc River

We are heading to the falls of loboc river...BE AMAZED! lol

Me, my cousin and my sister

NICE!

Me and my cousin"chez"

Full view of the waterfalls

My cousin

Sixth Trip:

Location: CHOCOLATE HILLS

Me, my sister,my cousins(Chris,Aivee,Jule and Myko)

Seventh Trip:

Location: Sagbayan Peak

RRAAWWRR!

On our Way to Kids Town in Sagbayan Peak

Nina my cousin

Beside the Entrance gate of kids town

Aivee my cousin, Snowhite and the seven dwarfs

Shoe slide! "pretty cute"

Mini Castle

Spot my brother! HAHA! *cool picture*

Macho Boys!

Rooftop of the mini castle! lol

Mini Hut booth!

Pizza booth!

Our Mothers a.k.a FINANCIERS! joke!

*whahahahaha*

Eight Trip;

Location: Danao, Bohol

WOOT! THE PLUNGE!

Actually There are a lot of activities you can try in Danao, there's just not enough time for us to take a pic! hahaha oh well, we stayed in Bohol for two days after those days I heard my parents and my auntie's planning to have an overnight in Camotes island. I am freaking excited!! waaah! imagine after having a trip to bohol another trip again! whoa SLOW DOWN PEOPLE! all plans are set all already and so let me guide you to our trip in CAMOTES ISLAND!

CAMOTES ISLAND

Sunset

Location: Palanas Beach, Camotes

Market market at the camotes

I kinda like this place coz its better than the market of Ormoc city!

This market is way clean! Green grass! pleasant place!

Trip#!:

*ME and my two cousins Aivee and Chez*

Location: Lake Danao

MINI BOAT!

Going back to Palanas Beach

CAMP FIRE!

ZOMBIES ARE ALIVE!!

DEMON REBORN!!

THE RING! *hahahahaha*

this is FREAKING COOL DUDE!

WHEW!

Trip#2:

Mangodlong Rock Beach Resort

Starfish*ohhh cute*

Baybay Family(I'm wearing violet shirt..see??)

me and my sister!

NOW LEAVING CAMOTES!

Camotes Island

Whew! So Tiring! It's not yet done! we have a lot more to show you guys! As what I told you This summer is way cool! Continuous summer trip! Even though its tiring ,our money and all is worth it coz we enjoyed! After maybe two days My mom really wanted to go to Canigao island in Matalom. Oh well it's because we didn't went to that place when My relatives went there. My mom thought its going to be a long trip so she decided to not go!..too bad so when my cousin posted some pics whew my mom was amazed coz it looks like a mini boracay so my mom decided to go there! hahaha so we prepared our snacks and all! Here are some photos taken in Canigao"

CANIGAO ISLAND, MATALOM, LEYTE

My first pic taken in Canigao !

Me, my mom and my cousin

WEEEEE! darna!

Me and my couz'!

My couz' jule!*ayiiee*

Sorry almost all of the photos are solo. I just want you too see the backgrounds..^_____^ Anyways, Swimming in Canigao makes me more brownish! my skin! waaah but its alright! i thnk so?! no no NO! its not fine! The weather in Canigao was so HOT! but airy! TSK TSK all i am thinking when i'm swimming was enjoy ENJOY! so AFTER that I stand in front of the mirror and SHOUT! in my mind! GOSH! I'M GETTING DARKER! T.T i regret that i swim under the heat of the burning sun and didn't even bother my skin!

After regretting those things I've done I thought my summer is over..because after those days, I didn't heard any plans anymore..so I get totally bored but after a week my father decided to go to his hometown for a visit and since "Kuting reef" is just located near to his hometown, we decided to go stay there for a night. So now here we go again another trip we go! so We went to my father's house:

Location: San Ricardo, Southern Leyte

School of my father when he's in elementary

AGAS-AGAS BRIDGE

Location: AGAS AGAS BRIDGE

Trip#1:

Location: Manaya Beach Resort

Infinity pool in Manaya Beach Resort

Native apartment...

Deck view of the beach

Stairs through the beach

This is it! the beach! well its pretty scray coz its a rocky beach

My dad ..

Trip#2:

Location: Kuting Reef Resort

TOP MENU! hahaha im "bagong gising" lol

*WOOT* orange!

Infinity pool of Kuting Reef Resort

ME and my sisters and my cousin too

Rocky table ang chair!

The native bar! cool huh..? haha

Me and my cousin's tent

Our tent! sorry its kinda MESSY! hahaha

OooH me! and tree?

Whoa! I think this is full already and I actually don't know how to end my post. Oh well there are just a lot of activities we've done this summer especially SWIMMING that's why i turned into a CHARCOAL! waaaah but its good to feel the summer in the Philippines. Even though we don't heve enough money we tried to enjoy summer by going to other places..

yeah your right! "we're not paying for the ride we're paying for the experience"

After having fun these days..school is back! and so we need to spend our time focusing and studying hard for we spend our summer totally fun and relaxing. Maybe this is it! Just wait for another year for me to post my new summer vacation next year..

So see you guys! and have fun! Leave some comments if you have something to say!

Once more thanks for reading! ^______^ till next time!