Pending questions

I am a person who never forgets our memories together. I am a person who gives importance to such people who also gives importance to me.

I titled my post"Pending questions" its because there's this person I knew that every time I am with this person, I can't help my self BUT to laugh and smile like a clown even if I am in a bad mood and connected to the title of my post. I have been asking for a sign and seeking help to god to give me answers why Am I feeling weird when I am with this particular person. STILL WAITING FOR THOSE SIGNS! T.T

It started when I was a little kid. Every time me and my whole family went home in the Philippines and saw "y"(code name- so it'll be easy for you to understand.) and mentioning my name, I can't help but to struggle and go near to him/her. Even In the airport leaving Philippines, I thought she was following me its because I can smell her cologne! nyayks! those things that I feel whenever him/her is there is totally WEIRD!

if you're in my position, you'll totally for sure let your palm be read!

WAAAAAAAAH!

Until I graduated and become high school, I still feel the same feeling when I am with him/her.

Now that I am staying here in Phils. for good, all the time I have been suffering when "y" is not around. I feel like I'm all alone and feels like I am gong to have a boring day with out "y". But every time "y" is around, I feel lively and like my body is full of energy. In in short , Whenever "y" is around or every time I'm with "y" I feel so comfortable talking to him/her or laughing with him/her. All those things we've done together is unforgettable. Even If how many times I forget it still, pops up in my mind. I can't forget all those fun and dull things we had together. It was like I am so open and sweet or kind to "y".

Sometimes I even text him/her and when he/she doesn't reply I feel really bad and I even tweet it! that I hate to be ignored. Oh well, When it comes to "y" I am sometimes over reacting. "Y" is also one of the reasons why I am studying so hard and eating a lot! I really don't have any idea why the heck am I feeling this.

One night, I am so feeling awful. and so I decided to text "y" and tell him/her everything. That I am having this weird feeling whenever he/she is around. and I also tell "y" everything about being sad or alone thingy and that's AWKWARD! telling the truth to "y" is totally awkward. I mean after those things "y" also told me, he/she did feel the same way for me.

and after that we end up LAUGHING! and "y" did also give some advices to me though. "Y" told me that there is a reason why I am in this position that there is also a reason why I'm feeling weird towards him/her!

Those advices really helped me. And now still those feelings is still attacking me!

I even over reacted last night! and I feel awful about it and got ignored again. I think It's my fault coz I feel like I am doing it, it's because I am trying to get "y's" attention.

I don't know actually how to end this post but I just want to say that maybe someday I'll find answers to my questions that why am I feeling weird(in my vocabulary)whenever that particular person is around?? Why do I get jealous when some one caught his/her attention?? Why do I feel comfortable when he/she is around?? -- er! slow down..there are actually a lot of pending questions popping in my mind right now and I hope I'll get the answers sooner!

I hope so! thanks for reading guys! Till next time readers! ^_________^

PS: I use him/her so that I can keep his/her identity! sorry I can't tell who's "y"

Thanks for understanding! and sorry for the wrong grammar...