Pending questions

I am a person who never forgets our memories together. I am a person who gives importance to such people who also gives importance to me.

I titled my post"Pending questions" its because there's this person I knew that every time I am with this person, I can't help my self BUT to laugh and smile like a clown even if I am in a bad mood and connected to the title of my post. I have been asking for a sign and seeking help to god to give me answers why Am I feeling weird when I am with this particular person. STILL WAITING FOR THOSE SIGNS! T.T

It started when I was a little kid. Every time me and my whole family went home in the Philippines and saw "y"(code name- so it'll be easy for you to understand.) and mentioning my name, I can't help but to struggle and go near to him/her. Even In the airport leaving Philippines, I thought she was following me its because I can smell her cologne! nyayks! those things that I feel whenever him/her is there is totally WEIRD!

if you're in my position, you'll totally for sure let your palm be read!

WAAAAAAAAH!

Until I graduated and become high school, I still feel the same feeling when I am with him/her.

Now that I am staying here in Phils. for good, all the time I have been suffering when "y" is not around. I feel like I'm all alone and feels like I am gong to have a boring day with out "y". But every time "y" is around, I feel lively and like my body is full of energy. In in short , Whenever "y" is around or every time I'm with "y" I feel so comfortable talking to him/her or laughing with him/her. All those things we've done together is unforgettable. Even If how many times I forget it still, pops up in my mind. I can't forget all those fun and dull things we had together. It was like I am so open and sweet or kind to "y".

Sometimes I even text him/her and when he/she doesn't reply I feel really bad and I even tweet it! that I hate to be ignored. Oh well, When it comes to "y" I am sometimes over reacting. "Y" is also one of the reasons why I am studying so hard and eating a lot! I really don't have any idea why the heck am I feeling this.

One night, I am so feeling awful. and so I decided to text "y" and tell him/her everything. That I am having this weird feeling whenever he/she is around. and I also tell "y" everything about being sad or alone thingy and that's AWKWARD! telling the truth to "y" is totally awkward. I mean after those things "y" also told me, he/she did feel the same way for me.

and after that we end up LAUGHING! and "y" did also give some advices to me though. "Y" told me that there is a reason why I am in this position that there is also a reason why I'm feeling weird towards him/her!

Those advices really helped me. And now still those feelings is still attacking me!

I even over reacted last night! and I feel awful about it and got ignored again. I think It's my fault coz I feel like I am doing it, it's because I am trying to get "y's" attention.

I don't know actually how to end this post but I just want to say that maybe someday I'll find answers to my questions that why am I feeling weird(in my vocabulary)whenever that particular person is around?? Why do I get jealous when some one caught his/her attention?? Why do I feel comfortable when he/she is around?? -- er! slow down..there are actually a lot of pending questions popping in my mind right now and I hope I'll get the answers sooner!

I hope so! thanks for reading guys! Till next time readers! ^_________^

PS: I use him/her so that I can keep his/her identity! sorry I can't tell who's "y"

Thanks for understanding! and sorry for the wrong grammar...

FABULOUS Newborn kittens

May 20, 2010 -the labor day of my dearest kittens.

Since I was a kid I always thought cats as purely bad luck animals which is not all. Every time I see black cats or any cats i immediately close my eyes and count 1 2 3 and open my eyes and look! the cat vanished! hahaha oh well, That was before but now as I grow I don't do those close eyes thingy of course~ nyahahaha. Anyways, let me show you our cat:

Name: Patricia *patring*"ming ming"

My mom gave her the name Patricia. It actually fits her. She's a girl as you can see in her name. Since Patricia stayed in our house almost all of our neighbor's cats got jealous of Patricia because As you can see Patricia has everything- food, comfortable place to stay, and can roam everywhere in our house, but hey! I'm not saying our neighbor's place is not that comfy but duh? we do take good care of our pets and shower them with fresh water and soap. Unlike the cats roaming around the roads and our neighbor's cats are so dirty and unpleasant. So definitely for sure those cats get jealous of Patricia. One time we saw some cats coming inside our backyard, roaming around. Well, As you can see in the picture Patricia is pretty and gorgeous and almost all of the cats that is always sneaking in our backyard are boys! They were like every night sneaking or could be VISITING our cat..HOWS THAT HUH?! tsk tsk..

One day we just notice something has change in her physical appearance and thats... because she has a big tummy! and so that means she's PREGNANT! We took good care of her.

May 20, in the morning I woke up because of her. because she was shouting for help maybe? or crying..Her tiny little squeaky voice is so damn irritating coz i am so freakin sleepy but oh she's cute though. Even after i ate she is still crying. So i go to my room and record her while crying:

CHECK THIS OUT:

Sorry it's kinda blur coz it's my cellphone I use. Anyways, back to her squeaky voice, so irritating right? waaah but then I was worried about her. She's crying because she wants to go inside our house. So because of that I let her in, in our window. Of course I just woke up so I didn't know anything why my mom and dad gets mad when I let her in. My sister just told me she has a blood in his butt and so i panic and find a way to let her go out. That means she's going to deliver her babies.

After Lunch, I just heard from my yaya' that our cat is now delivering her babies. So of course I hate how cats deliver there babies so I really don't mind checking or sneaking out plus I hate bloods especially the smell it SUCKS! ew!

Maybe around 4:00 PM Patricia is done delivering her babies and gladly she has four KITTENS! HOORAAY!

It took weeks for us to take a pic and go near to those kittens. I just can't stop but to go near to them so I find a right time to sneak and So here we are, I am going to show you some of my kittens pictorial session while Patricia is not around:

We actually didn't decide any names for our kittens yet.

As you can see in this photo, the brownish cat's left eye is not fully developed.

WOOT! so cute!

CUTE!^___^

There are more..and more photos taken..

SLEEPY HEADS!

OHH..HOW SWEET

USING ONE ANOTHER AS PILLOWS!

LOOK! PATRING LOOK ALIKE!

Starring the..

"Black cat"

SOLOS:

"Patricia LOOK ALIKE"

garfield look alike

cuuttee

dalmatian look alike

There a lot of photos but then it will make my post long so I just cut it off. I just choose those presentable pics though so no worries at all. Hahahahaha. We actually didn't decide there names yet cause I DON'T KNOW AT ALL! hahahaha.

I Think i'll end my post here cause my purpose in this post is to show some photos. So there, you see how adorable and cute kittens they are.

So maybe This is it! Till next time readers! Just wait for more photos and pictorials of my adorable kittens. Thanks for reading and leave some comments if you have something to say.

XOXO^____^

Mixed emotions

I feel weird awhile ago but now i feel funny about myself and my cousin(you might wanna check the time? : 10: 00 pm). For sure you guys wanna know why I feel weird then suddenly feel funny about myself and my cousin. Oh well I feel weird awhile ago coz maybe I'm bored and don't know what to do at all, because every time i have this dysmenorrhea all I do is to fall asleep or lay in my bed and watch t.v if ever I'm bored. Since there are no nice movies featuring at all I don't know what to do but stare at the wall, check my phone if ever anyone texted me. Until I went to the church and went home to eat, everything i felt being a weirdo vanished and changed into feeling lively. Lively because all i do the whole afternoon was to sleep so of course at night you are totally so awake and full of energy. Since I can't sleep I opened my facebook and some one chatted me in a rush. It's now my cousin. This part I am now telling you why I feel funny about my cousin and myself. My cousin"chez" do ask me if do i still have the old account or link that she gave me before. That link was actually important to us. I look for it in my messages but I just can't see it. I asked her if she checked it in her SECOND account, she told me "none". So of course i looked it again in my inbox. Me and my cousin is now in a trouble and getting panic looking for that link. So of course i helped her and opened her second account and check again in it's inbox and now there it is! I SAW IT! hahaha so I opened again my account and chat with her confirming if i got the correct link and so it is! I told her that everything's under control and so i asked her..ARE YOU HAPPY NA? hahaha and she was! Seeing her panic is funny and oh cute! so that's how my post ends! I helped her look for that link! HORAY FOR ME!

just sharing readers! till next time thanks for reading! ^^